Watch out Fort Worth, Texas! I have a Brady

Yup! Yup! I finally have a copy of the manual that I've been waiting twenty years to hold. Why did it take so long Fort Worth, Texas? Well watch the video and find out.

Planning to move

I'm planning to move and then really planning to move. I'm actually moving over to the West Side of Fort Worth, Texas. I've spent nearly four years on the East Side of Fort Worth. Don't get me wrong. 

I consider East Side part of me. I know a lot of the people. I'm friendly with the Fire Department and several of the Police Officers. I'm just tired of not being able to step away from my work. Chalk it up to being a Doctor or Nurse. Everyone asks you for advice or information because of the field that your in. That's what is happening now. I need to move into a place where my sanctuary is my sanctuary. Where it's not an extension of my work.

So this is a list of all the things that I need to get for the new place. When I show pictures, I'm sure many of you will say that this is a guys apartment. Or this apartment belongs to a young adult. I like movies. I like vibrant colors. I like fun.

Living room
Couch
Love Seat
coffee table
candles
cute candle holders
TV table
end tables
two lamps
artwork
picture frames
plants

Dining room
Dinner table
chairs
table mats
centerpiece

Kitchen
Beer mugs
coffee cups
milk glasses
dining ware
silver ware
mixer
blender
rice cooker
cookware
mixing bowls

Bedroom
Bed
Comforter
artwork
pillows
throw pillows
teddy bears
throw blanket

Bathroom
hand towels
towels
bath mat
shower curtain
scale

Misc
Cleaning supplies
Air freshener
Fan
game system
DVR
patio chairs
patio table

8 Mile

No I'm not Eminem Fort Worth Texas. Just sitting here celebrating a weight loss challenge. As of today, I have eight miles into my job challenge. I promise I'll be running like those guys that I see on Sunday one day. What am I talking about?

Every Sunday these three guys pass by the bus pass on their run. Every Sunday I wish I was these fellas. Well I wish I was running. I don't know if it's because I have the need to run in a pack or the need to just have the ability to run. 

I know that in the past that I wasn't a very good runner. I have the great ability for hikes, walks, and dancing. I just became a dorky looking when I tried to take off on a sprint. I just seemed like I couldn't put one foot in front of the other correctly.

So one of my weight loss and health goals is to be able to run a 14 minute mile around Fort Worth, Texas. I may never become civil servant but damn I want the ability to save a person if I have to. There is nothing wrong with wanting your body in optimal performance.

So there it is. If I'm not doing 45 minute 3 mile runs by next Summer, you have the right to track me down and tear into me like a drill Sargent. 

I feel like such a liar Fort Worth, Texas.

Here I sit spouting words of not giving up on weight loss goals and on things that are wanted in life. Yet I didn't take the step today to something that I have been wanting to do since fall 2014. What is that goal? It's an emotional goal of pushing past my self doubt and give a Fort Worth Police Officer my telephone number.

I hadn't seen him since March 2014. Then all of a sudden he shows up at the front door of my work. I tell you it was as if he wasn't gone at all. We dealt with the issue at hand professionally. We smiled and chatted as if I had seen him yesterday.

Then something happened that I never got to do in the past. He actually looked me straight in the eyes tonight. Usually I could never get his attention because an old co-worker was more outgoing then I was. The co-worker is gone. I've taken her place in command of the situations that happen at the shelter at night. Those milk chocolate brown eyes.

It's like he's got those claws into me all over again. I thought I had let the possibility of a date go as four months has passed by. I couldn't step up to the line though. I really don't want to give him my number at work because it's unprofessional. I do want to give him my number.

Then the self doubt sets in.

What if he doesn't like large women.

What if he's afraid the guys will tease him. I mean my co-worker was trying to set him up with someone. Possibly me. From what I hear his partners gave a resounding yes that he was a single man.

What if I'm too wild for him. He seems like a quiet country guy. Well except for the story of him going toe to toe with a drunk man on one of his calls when he was just out of the academy. I like men that are fist and elbows.

What if he doesn't like the cherry red hair?

What if he doesn't want a loud aggressive female? Yet he did burst out laughing when I shared one of my close calls at work. A woman was mentally ill. She threatened to kick me up side the head. I told her to try it.

In truth..I've been hurt so much...I have an adamant fear of rejection. But I can't go another day without knowing either he likes me or he doesn't want anything to do with me.
 

Cholesterol smesterol

Did you know that the cholesterol in your foods may have a little effect on your blood cholesterol. In the past the cap on cholesterol in a healthy diet was 300 milligrams. Now experts are saying that what people should be watching is the saturated fats and trans fats in their diet.

What does that mean? It's time to cut down on the red meat, processed meats, and lunch meats. It's time to start reading the labels. You will be surprised at what actually has hydrogenated oil in it. You don't actually think that's milk your eating when you eat Kool whip.

We have become a society of convenience. This evidence is showing around our belt, thighs, and upper arms. More people are become ill today with Cancers because of the processed food.

As being of the 14th largest cities in the United States, I think we should be one of the healthiest. I know I'm not the greatest Fort Worth Texan role model. Let's step away from the packaged and fast foods.

Where's the healthy meal plans

I know that I have been lacking in providing healthy meal plans. It's not that I don't have them. There is no way that I could have lost 130 pounds of fat without them. There is no way that I'm going to lose another 130 pounds of fat without them. The truth is...

I just haven't organized all 365 days of them. Well more than that really. I have meal plans from March 2014 till today. The are written down on emails, napkins, small pieces of paper, and other little things. 

I do make this promise to my readers though. There will be a daily meal plan, weight loss journal, and work out program for each day of the week. I'm just in the process of transferring everything over to Fort Worth Flab 2 Fit.

I could always use some healthy meal plan suggestions. So while I'm typing, typing, working out and typing, share your favorite meal in the comment section!!!

Don't give up Fort Worth, Texas losers!

How can we who have full use of our limbs give up on obtaining optimal health. Why do I make this statement? There are some people out there who are doing some amazing things. Yet others don't want to make the time to put in a 10-30 minute work out. I'm not trying to criticize anyone. I'm just trying to make a point.

I have a friend who was in the military. He now runs around with fit and younger military men. He's a trauma care instructor. If you could see the things that he teaches, it's amazing.

Just recently he posted pictures of a bruised knee. He's an avid mountain climber. The caption of the picture talked about how he was 20 feet in the air and how his friends laughed when a prosthetic fell off. All I could think was "Wow"

What an inspiration from a man that wasn't trying to be an inspiration. A man that is in his late 40's or early 50's. He runs around in the desert with these young guys and obviously keeps up with them. Then to find out that he either has a prosthetic arm or leg.

How can someone not be inspired.

I'll take 75% muscle over weight loss any day

It's time for a celebration Fort Worth, Texas! At least I think I deserve a little bit of celebrating. I'm not going to indulge in anything stupid. I think I'll take my happy behind over to Ridgemar Mall for one of the hour long acupressure sessions. I wish I could find someone who knew how to perform Reiki or Cupping. 

What am I celebrating?

I'm currently 420 lbs (Celebrating a 130 pound weight loss as of today)

220 lbs is muscle

I can't believe that my body is literally 50 percent muscle.

This brings up the thought...what if I weighed 300 lbs and 75 percent was muscle? I'm sure I would definitely have a different body shape. 

Does the universe know my weight loss goals?

I woke up this morning and found this in my Fort Worth, Texas newsletter. It's a little snippet of Astrology that really hit me upside the head.

"Your strong imagination provides an innovative spark, turning the dark future into a place you can get glimpses of. Use those glimpses to shape your appearance. Maneuver as you step towards the career you want."

I'm sitting here really asking myself "What the hell?" 

It's just a scary coincidence that I've been having dreams about my body taking shape to where I want it to be. I've also been having active dreams. Sometimes these dreams involve a healthier body and possible careers at the same time. Dreams of saving peoples lives, protecting people at work, and talking shop with fellow Public Service/Public Safety personnel. 

All the while I get some glimpse of a changed body part. One moment I'm running on the east side of Fort Worth, Texas. The next dream I'm doing yoga in my back yard. The next dream, I'm biking home from work to the West Side of Fort Worth, Texas. The next dream I'm paddle boarding on the Trinity.

Yeah...it's going to be an interesting year of weight loss, healthy eating, and body shaping in Fort Worth, Texas.

Persuing a dream in Fort Worth, Texas

Someone once said that as soon as you start to pursue a dream, your life wakes up and everything has meaning. This quote about goals, life, and success can not be farther from the truth. I once lived a very boring, sad, and mediocre life. I had dreams but I never spent the energy to pursue them.

Everything does have meaning, now that I've started to pursue dreams and goals in my life. Every decision that I make has an important meaning in my life. No longer are the days where I don't care anymore. No longer are the days where I'll idly let the sun rise and set in the city.

What did my healthy meals look like today?

Dinner
Coffee with equal and 4 creamers
Apple
Banana
Instant Ramen soup

Snack
Serving of baby carrot
Serving of peanuts

Lunch
Serving of three meat lasagna
Salad with ranch dressing

Snack
Serving of baby carrots
Serving of peanuts

Breakfast
Grilled Talapia Sandwich on a whole wheat hamburger bun, lettuce, pickles, grilled onions, and grilled mushrooms
10 baked French fries (1/2 russet potato with a little bit of olive oil and then baked)


I hope you had a healthy and happy day in the city of Fort Worth!

Finding a place to walk in Fort Worth, Texas

I don't feel safe walking in Fort Worth, Texas. I see people running around all the time. I just don't see how they feel safe on the streets. I don't live in the greatest neighborhood. I've been blessed <sarcasm> to live on the East Side of Fort Worth, Texas. Yes, it's a neighborhood of drug deals and prostitution.

Today my best friend and I did a lot of walking. I took the mile long walk from 7-11 to my studio apartment. Then we decided that we were going to go to the zoo. So we walked to Ol' Pancake House to the entrance to the zoo. We passed by the river. It was a great place to walk.

I still did not feel comfortable in the area even though we were on the West Side of Fort Worth, Texas. So I guess I have a new adventure on my road to health and weight loss. I want to find a walking group or path to walk when Spring 2016 arrives to the city. Or perhaps fellow panthers will get excited about their health and join me on the river trails.

 

It's a simple meal tonight in Fort Worth, Texas

The adventures of weight loss in Fort Worth, Texas is so much easier when you have people to support you in your efforts. On another website, I posted my successes, short term goals, and long term goals were. I was really surprised about the people that spoke up about my healthy eating and my meal plans.

Of course there were men and women who said that I didn't need to lose any more weight. That it was the personality that mattered. I was very humbled when I was told that I have a great spirit. We are our own worse enemy even when it comes to judging our own character. I tend to be really hard on myself.

What was on the menu today for my diet

Dinner:
Six inch Subway Turkey breast sub
2 vegetable egg rolls

Snack
Serving of baby carrots
Donut

Lunch
Six inch Subway Turkey breast sub
3 ounces of grilled chicken
1/4 cup of baked beans

Snack
Serving of baby carrots

Breakfast
4 ounces of grilled chicken
Coffee with 4 Tbsp creamer and equal
1/4 cup of baked beans

That was my day of healthy eating in Fort Worth, Texas. How are you doing with your weight loss?

Took the long way home in Fort Worth Texas

Usually on Friday mornings, I head to the local check cashing spot in Fort Worth, Texas. Then I jump on the bus and head home. I had a lot of energy today. I decided to take the long way home. I walked the five blocks. At 8 a.m. in the morning, I already had sweat pouring from my pores. It feels good to cram activity into whatever space I can on a busy day.

What was my healthy eating plan for the day?

Dinner
Apple
Banana
Coffee with 4 creamer cups and equal

Snack
Serving of baby carrots and a serving of ranch dressing

Lunch
4 ounces of grilled chicken
1 cup of cauliflower
1 Tbsp of cream cheese
1 Tbsp of sour cream

Snack
Serving of green grapes
Cheese stick

Breakfast
4 ounces of grilled beef
1/4 cup of baked beans
1/2 large potato
1 Tbsp of sour cream

A day full of regrets

I know as someone who is trying to also be a teacher of healthy eating habits. I shouldn't really write about having a day of regrets. I would rather be honest about my weight loss adventures. There are going to be days when there seems like there is a cloud over your head.

A person would think that this is a good thing in Fort Worth, Texas. At least I have shade from the heat. I don't have protection from the pain that I feel in my heart though. Today was indeed a tough day of battling those internal wars. It's made worse by coming home to an empty apartment.

There are just some things that I should have done when I was younger that would affect me greatly today. I know that everything happens for a reason be it either good or bad. It just makes me angry sometimes thinking about the tenure I would have as a Medic or Law Enforcement Officer. I would have 23 years experience if I had not talked myself out of it.

The excuses for not being a Medic? I don't like the sight of blood. I'm not thin enough at 220 pounds. I wouldn't be able to give someone CPR. Yet, I see Medics every day who are the size I was back then. I have no problem dealing with blood or injuries. Actually I'm the one who's grabbing the gloves at applying pressure to wounds till EMS gets to the shelter.

The excuses for not being a Law Enforcement Officer. I'm not thin enough. I don't like to run. I can't run as fast as the other little cadets. Now at 43 years old. It's too late.

So my life is filled with being the best Security Supervisor as I can be. I mean I do have a lot to handle. I really like my job. Even on the days when I'm running around on my feet for several hours. I just wish I had done more or want to find ways of doing more.

Remember that your a sexy Fort Worth Texas woman

Sometimes I wonder what the Fort Worth Police Officers and Fort Worth Fire Department think of me when they come to an emergency call at my work. I know some of them are shaking their heads. I've gotten some not so great looks that have well...made me cry.

I don't cry often but I was having a really bad day. The look was just icing an a nasty flavored cake. It was one of those looks that started from your head, went to your toes, and then met at your eyes with a smirk on his face.

I have a friend in my life. How long has our friendship been? Is it really going on two months. Wow it's been a great two months so far. He's not a LEO, Fireman, or part of the EMS in the DFW area. But he sent me this text. I want to hold on to it for when I have those days when I can't stand looking at myself in the mirror.

"You are My Lil Red. You are a girlie girl bad ass Wolf tamer all wrapped up in a &^%$ sexy curvy package."

It's actually funny that he put the term wolf tamer. How did I get the nickname wolf tamer? My friend and I call the local...well let me break it down completely

Motorcycle cops - Copcycles (another story to share)
Fort Worth Police Officers - Panthers on the prowl
Constables - Big Chief
Sherriff - Long Horns
K-9  - Sniffers
Mounted Police - Cowboys
Fire Department - Howling Wolves (Because of the siren)
Medstar - Goldies (as in gold stars)

So how did I become the wolf tamer of Fort Worth, Texas? Well I have a love/hate relationship with some of the men at Station 2 and 14. I always try to be professional but there are some days when I'm not going to back down verbally.

At first I was on my jobs cleaning crew. I got yelled at by an Engineer/Medic for walking in and out of a door. I told him that I was doing my job and he yelled back that he was doing his. Then there was another incident where the man was just making rude comment. I can understand that being woken up at 4 a.m. is not fun. When your in one of my buildings, at least treat me with the respect that I give you.



 

The best inspiration for weight loss....

Someone once said that the best inspiration comes from within. The same can be said about the best inspiration for weight loss and eating a healthy diet. The inspiration has to come from within yourself. Family, Friends, and Lovers are great support when it comes to a persons weight loss goals.

When it come to getting out of bed to go for that walk, it's going to be only you. When its time to push yourself to achieving that 12 minute mile run, its going to be your feet pounding the pavement. So wake up DFW! Wake up Fort Worth, Texas! It's time to inspire yourself to do great things.

I know that this is easier said than done. A friend once told me to focus on the positive. One day I had to stop exercising because I had a small tear in the tendon in my foot. Focus on the positive he says "I see that you had three days where you had great work outs and healthy eating days." Has the light bulb in your brain gone off yet?

An inspiration can be anything!

• Clothes that you look forward to wearing
• A journal of your progress
• Pictures of your progress
• A location that you want to take
• Pictures of family members that you want to spend more time with
• Quotes that are inspiring themselves
• Videos of people who have succeeded
• Books on people who have succeeded in life

It's a happy family day in Fort Worth, Texas

When a person has been on a healthy eating plan for a year. They tend to start craving the foods that are healthy for them. For example, I've gotten into the habit of getting a cup of coffee and piece of fruit from our local 7/11 each morning after work. Not only does this give me about a five block walk but I get to check out all the local firemen and police officers getting their morning coffee. 

Then there are days like today where my body is seriously craving healthy foods. There are days in Fort Worth, Texas where I want to steam and eat every vegetable in sight. More than likely, my diet is not completely balanced yet and I'm leaving out important vitamins. I need to plan on putting more fruits and vegetables into my meals.

Dinner
Apple
Banana
Coffee with creamer and sweetner
Bottle of water

Lunch
Six crackers
Serving of Progresso Clam Chowder
5 extra steamed shrimp

Dinner
Egg Roll
2 Pot Stickers
Steamed Seafood with broccoli, onions, water chestnuts, diced carrots in a white sauce

I hope you have a healthy diet and fitness plan in Fort Worth, Texas today!

Weight Loss Tip: Go for the salad Fort Worth, Texas

Are you ready for another weight loss tip? I'm always trying to add more fruits and vegetables to my diet. O.k. let me be honest there are days when my body actually craves raw vegetables. The junk food teen and carnivorous wolf inside of me turns into a little red bunny rabbit.

My schedule is so busy that I'm more like a red chicken running around with my head cut off. I'm sure there are others out there in Fort Worth, Texas and the rest of the world that feel just the way I do. What is a person to do? Do we pay the higher price of already cut up vegetables? Do we pay the price of healthy meals of vegetables and protean.

A little weight loss tip? Pick a day to cut, shred, slice and dice. I try to make sure that the vegetable crisper is filled with shredded carrots, sliced eggs, shredded/diced radishes, shredded zucchini, diced cucumbers, cherry tomatoes, fresh spinach, shredded lettuce and much more.

My salad dressings are measured out into individual serving sizes. You can buy a sleeve of 2 ounce cups and lids at most office supply/medical stores.

Then when I'm in a rush, I'll throw a salad together and top it with a lean protean. I'm then able to have a meal in an instant. So there you go Fort Worth, a weight loss tip and healthy meal plan bright and early this morning.

My favorite Taco Salad healthy recipe

When you say Taco Salad, I'm sure that it doesn't bring up ideas of healthy eating to mind. Most Taco Salads are laden with fatty meats, cheeses, refried beans, and creams. Something a person definitely doesn't want in their diet unless they want a splurge day. This is why I love my healthy taco salad recipe. The taste buds get all of the flavor but less fat.

Healthy Taco Salad
Serving of raw spinach
Serving of iceberg lettuce
4 ounces of grilled chicken that has been diced
Diced bell peppers
Diced onions
Serving of black beans that have been cooled
Yellow corn

Layer the ingredients of the Taco salad the way that you find appealing. I personally like to mix everything together. Top with low fat yogurt or low fat sour cream.

 

Healthy PYUDYO

Pick

Yourself

Up

Dust

Yourself Off

And Start All Over Again!

The Healthy Cha-Cha

Taking a step backward after taking a step forward is not a disaster;

it's more like a cha-cha.

Where are all the ENFJ's in Fort Worth, Texas

I wonder what my life would be like if I had stuck to my weight loss and healthy meals in Fort Worth, Texas. Would I have had a 20+ year career in public service (EMS/LEO). Or would I have gone into teaching teenagers and adults? Or would I be in the medical field as a Psychologist or Nurse? 

Frustrating thought indeed when the light bulb goes off. When some information is found and after reading it a person instantly gets excited and says "Yes...yes that me!" A friend and I were talking about personalities. Though we are very different as friends, we seriously have different personalities. I'm more Extroverted while she is more Introverted. So we decided to take a Jung personality test.

I found out that my personality is an ENFJ. This type of personality makes up about 2 percent of the population. We are the leaders, teachers, and the people that like to inspire. I have to say that it's a shame that at a young age I let the need of approval from other people change my life in such a way.

When I got out of high school I was planning on becoming a Paramedic. Actually I was planning to join the Army as a linguist. I let someone tell me at this young age that I was too big. At 190 pound, I was only 40 pounds over weight. At 16 I was 5'8 and there I stayed. Their words made me feel like I was this huge monster. Actually, it was a childhood of teasing, judgment, and constantly being put on a diet that made me feel like I was a monster.

So I thought that I was too big to help someone. Why do I share this with the citizens of Fort Worth, Texas and the rest of the world? I want people to go out there and achieve their dreams. If it's a weight loss goal then achieve it. If it's a career goal then go for it. Just reach for that damn brass ring on the carousel ride of life.

 

You want to know my weight why?

Sometimes things get tough when your loves, friends and family members want to get involved in your weight loss and healthy lifestyle. Sure, it's easy to keep track of your own life and be critical of yourself. It's hell when you open yourself up to other peoples comments and criticism. 

I had a lovely friend ask me to weigh in every Wednesday. Of course I'm sitting here wondering why the hell he wants that kind of information. I mean can't he see my weight loss through the smaller clothes that I'm buying? What would be the purpose of knowing the numbers?

He's also trying to lose weight and get healthy. We both have jobs that need us in the top of our physical fitness. Is he seeing this as a competition? Is he suddenly going to lift me up and walk me across a room when I'm a certain weight? Or is he going to use it as a motivational point in my life?

Maybe I should just stop reading things into his questions and emails.

Bet with a Fort Worth Police Officer

I work in an industry where everyone needs to be healthy and are usually following a healthy diet. We are an industry where we need to be in top shape. This is not only for our own good but for the good of our clients. How are we suppose to help others when we can't even help ourselves.

A friend and I were talking about our health and the fact that we needed to lose weight. He wasn't happy that he was out of energy in the middle of his shift. I was not happy about a lot of things about my weight. We both needed to lose weight for different reasons. One thing that binds us together is the fact that we need to lose weight to do our job better.

I have this ultimate fear that I'm going to have to perform CPR on someone. I'm afraid that my stomach would be to big. Or I would be unable to get on my knees to help. Or I would be unable to get up from a kneeling position.

So today Officer M and I made a bet. Each week we will put two dollars in a pot. At the end of the month, whomever has lost the most weight will win the pot. That's a profit of weight loss at ten dollars. Now here is the exciting part. The person who won the pot that month has the option of putting their winnings back in the pot. Kind of a Black Jack double down deal.

I know that I'm really pushing myself to go against a guy. Guys just tend to lose weight faster. They also tend to gain muscle quicker. So it may come to a point where I don't want to play this game anymore.

It's a fun and healthy game while it's still going on though. I have to admit. This Fort Worth Police Officer is already handsome as a teddy bear. I can't wait to see him when he's a lean mean muscle machine. I'm still praying that I win the healthy bet.

About a new opportunity of living a healthy lifestyle

Every minute is a new opportunity to make new decisions.

 



The fireman followed me where?

I really need to amp up my weight loss and healthy eating. Nothing shows a person how out of shape they are when 4 cute Firemen are following you up the stairs to check how much smoke there is in the building. Of course I wanted to be tough, I wanted to be able to sprint up the stairs. Nope, I waddled up the stairs. I'm so ashamed.

Today really opened my eyes on how out of shape I am. Sure I see pictures of myself with flab hanging all over the place. I know that there is muscle under that flab if I am able to carry my body well. I have always been able to carry my body well and quickly.

I want to be able to do my job well. I want to be able to carry 15 pounds of gear without a problem. I want to stop sweating like a leaf in a rain forest during hot Texas Summer months. I want to be able to save a life if I'm ever put into that position.

A friend has invited me the gym. Normally I work out at home. I think I'll take her up on the offer this time. I know with muscle tone, I'll be able to climb the stairs at work with no problem. As soon as I increase my endurance then I'll be able to run up the stair before the Firemen do.

McDonalds Splurge Day

I can't believe that it's been another two weeks on my weight loss program. I'm doing my best to turn Fort Worth Flab into Fort Worth Fit in a years time. I really want all of this weight gone before next summer. If I am unable to succeed, then I would at least like to have a healthier lifestyle and be a size 16.

Today is not a successful day because today is also a spurge day. I tend to have spurge days every two weeks. They actually keep me on track with my weight loss. I know what you are thinking. How can eating junk food for one meal allow you to stay on track with your health? It's the fact that I know in two weeks I can have the pizza, ice cream, lasagna, and other heavy calorie items. Only for one meal though.

I think I want to start letting my treats be healthier things. Things that are good quality instead of quantity. I want treats to be things like professionally made muffins, hand rolled sushi, and nice protean that is higher in calories. I mean who doesn't like a good slice of fatty fish over a grill.

Today consisted of high sugar items and fatty fast food in my diet. I wanted to try the new steak, egg, and bagel. I also wanted something with coffee in it that was really cold. I purchased a McDonalds Frappuccino. I have to admit that I was not impressed with either. I wish I had used my weight loss splurge on something else.

With healthy living don't focus on...

Don't Focus On How Far You Have Left To Go. Be Proud Of How Far You've Come

Not all sugar free is sugar free

Along with trying to follow a healthy diet, I have to watch my blood sugar too. I found out that I was an insulin dependent diabetic back in the beginning of March 2015. I've done pretty well dealing with Diabetes. I wasn't much of a pasta, rice, and starch food kind of person in the first place.

Why give up chocolate when there are alternatives to high blood sugar. Walgreens is a company that has blessed customers with a variety of choices. Today I picked dark Hershey bars and peppermint patties. I had a great time eating them until I looked at the back of the package.

The sugar free candies at the store may say sugar free. They are hell on your blood sugar when it comes to counting carbohydrates. Three pieces of the peppermint patty sugar free candies were a total of 16 grams of carbohydrates. That's a serving of carbohydrates. I only plan on eating three servings a day.

I hate to say it but the price that a person pays for carbohydrates and dollars with sugar free candy is just not worth it. I'd rather get the grams of carbohydrates in my diet from things like bananas, apples, bake potatoes, and buttered squash.

Your an amazing woman

A big part of dealing with weight loss and living healthy is the emotional part. When we are not in the right frame of mind, staying on a healthy eating plan can be difficult. I was told today "Your an amazing person." Why is it so hard to believe the person though. Why is it so hard not to think that the man is just being nice or he just wants to get something by having a silver tongue.

Everyone's words are valid. When a person gives a compliment it's difficult to believe them. It's hard for me to believe peoples words because I have been hurt so many times by peoples words. I personally would like to deal with physical let downs than pain caused by words. They say that the pen is mightier than the tongue. I say both can tear a person apart.

I'm slowly trying to just say "Thank You" when HE gives me compliments. It's not something that is going to happen over night. I am trying to learn though.

Down a size in the lady stuff

Proof that my healthy lifestyle in Fort Worth, Texas is working. How can someone not lose weight and clean the impurities out of their body with the heat that we have been having. I'm really glad that I work 3rd shift. I have to deal with as little heat as possible.

Breakfast
Chicken breast
A large artichoke
Salad with 2 Tbsp of mayonnaise shredded carrots, egg, 1oz of cheese, cherry tomatoes

Snack
Serving of grapes

Lunch
Progresso clam chowder (2 servings)

Snack
Cheese stick
Serving of green grapes

Dinner
Cup of coffee with equal and creamer
Large apple
Banana

What is the proof that my weight loss plan is working? Well I have a date tomorrow so I went out and purchased some cute bras and undies. I looked at the measurements on the back of the package. Low and behold, I'm down a size with my underwear. Healthy living has caused me to get a natural breast reduction. I went from a size 52 to a size 44.
 

Weight loss journey fortune cookie says!

Fortune cookie says "Never compare yourself to the best others can do, but to the best you can do." I say "Strive to push yourself to become more!" I know that in my life that I tend to compare myself to other people. It's not a healthy habit at all.

As we live our lives it is important to remember that we are all on different levels. Some may be farther along in their health and fitness goals. It's important that we do not compare our success with other peoples success. People need to find the goals that they want to achieve and challenge themselves.

The path to your personal success is knowing exactly what you want. Be brutally honest with yourself when it comes to weight loss goals. Be honest about your other goals in life. Anything worth having is worth the effort. Understand that some goals are going to take longer than others. Understand that there are going to be some missed steps along the way.

To put it to the streets of Fort Worth Texas, stay out of other peoples business and deal with your own weight loss goals.

Physical scare

Today I feel like my weight loss program and fitness lifestyle is not good enough. I feel that I don't have enough muscle on my body. I had a scare this morning. One of the clients at my job physically attacked me. Thankfully it was just a slap on the head.

I sat there why it was over to think about things. What if it was more. What if the attack was more aggressive. What if I was flat on my back with the need to get the man off of me. Do I have enough muscle mass to handle a 250 pound man.

I know I have enough moxie to fight back. It's actually funny. I caught the glances of some of the Fort Worth Police Department Officers. I'm wondering if they were thinking the same thing. How did this mass of fat handle a man that is pretty much muscle.

I don't ever want to have this fear again. I've been told that fear is good. Fear is what keeps us alive. Perhaps it's not fear that I don't want again but doubt. I don't want to have the doubt that. I want to be sure that I can handle myself.

Some of my weight loss and lifestyle goals are to:
Have a black belt in Kendo
Take self defense classes every year
Wear a badge even if it's as an armed security guard

I need to not have this doubt because I need to know that I can take care of myself to do these things. It's really time to up my weight loss and fitness goals.

Be like nature with your new healthy lifestyle

Have you ever observed nature closely? Have you ever noticed how a seed fights the earth to emerge into a victorious plant? Have you observed how a bird, with precision and hard work, finally manages to build its nest? Nature does not give up. Why should you?

How to deal with misfortunes

The longer we dwell on our misfortunes, the greater is their power to harm us. - Voltaire

Attitude and weight loss

Attitude is our best friend and our worst enemy

It's a healthy Subway Black Forest Ham day in Fort Worth Texas

I really don't have a kitchen in Fort Worth, Texas. So I am relying on some processed foods to keep on track with my diet. I figure if Jared can lose a hundred plus pounds with Subway Sandwiches then so can I. I don't plan on going on a diet plan like he did but it does help when time is short.

Dinner
Apple
Banana
Coffee with sugar free hazelnut syrup and three half/half creamers.

Lunch
6 inch Subway Black Forest ham on whole wheat, chipotle sauce, all the vegetables.
Diet soda

Dinner
Grilled Chicken breast, serving of black beans, whole wheat flour tortilla, mango salsa

It's a Subway oven roasted Chicken breast day in Fort Worth Texas.

Not all fast food is bad when a person is trying to eat a balanced diet and live a healthy lifestyle. There are many fast food and local restaurants that try to give patrons a healthy option for lunch. I know that I could probably save more money by making these items at home. Just sometimes it's easier to pick things up at Subway.

Dinner
Apple
Banana
Coffee with sugar free hazelnut syrup and three half/half creamers

Lunch
6 Inch oven roasted Chicken breast on whole wheat with Tziki sauce. Let's not forget all the vegetables that Subway has to offer.
Sun Chips
Diet Soda

Dinner
6 Inch oven roasted Chicken breast on whole wheat with Greek sauce, lettuce, tomatoes, cucumbers, olives, green bell peppers, and more vegetables.

Work is getting in the way

It has been tough trying to go from Fort Worth Flab to Fort Worth Fit. As the title says it, I have been letting my job get in the way of my work outs. I wonder if I can count all the walking that I do at work into my weight loss program. I don't think it's a fast enough walk though. I know that I am not walking two miles an hour.

I recently took a pedometer to work and counted the steps that I do. If I am walking around the campus, I am able to fit about two miles of walking into my work day. That equals about six to seven miles a week depending on how busy it is at work. There are days when I'm jogging across campus because of the type of emergencies that we have.


Breakfast
3 ounces of steak
2 cups of lettuce and 1 tbsp of mayonnaise
1 cup of cauliflower

Lunch
Grilled fish sandwich with tarter sauce, bun, lettuce, and tomato
1/2 cup of egg drop soup

Dinner
2 servings of corn flakes with milk

Snack
Serving of vegetable chips

Snack
Granola bar

I haven't been getting on the scale during my weight loss program. I really don't care what the numbers say on the scale. I love the fact that the swelling has gone down in my body. I see less swelling in my hands, feet, and lower legs. Truthfully, I want to take up less space in clothing and in my lovers bed.

I also love the fact that my stomach is taking a different shape. I'll talk about that later though. It's time to end my shift. It's time to do my last bit of rounds. Then it's time to head home to bed.

Fix that face fatty and my weight loss journey

It's been about a year and a couple months of being on my weight loss journey. I have come a long way both physically and mentally. I recently had a man tell me "Fix that face fatty" Honestly, he was mad that I would not go to bed with him. What happened amazed me.

In the past, a comment like that would really upset me. I would be emotionally crushed. I would hate the way that I looked. I would mentally  beat myself up over one persons comment. I would not eat healthy like this:

Breakfast:
Serving of whole wheat cereal
Serving of milk
Medium apple

Lunch
Turkey sandwich with lots of vegetables
Beef and vegetable soup

Dinner
Chicken breast grilled with mustard sauce
Grilled cauliflower
Bake potato with sour cream and chives

As I walk farther and farther down this weight loss path, things like this do not hurt me anymore. I'm at an emotional state at this moment where comments like that will get a whole lot of moxie. Yes, moxie has become my new favorite word. I figure if men and women don't like me at the size that I am now then that is on them. They don't have to
like me when I'm at the size that I want to be. They don't have to  join my
healthy lifestyle journey.

It's a lentils with ham day in Fort Worth, Texas

Progressive Soup has really made some changes with their recipes. This really helps me personally because I never know how to make a healthy lunch. There have been many days when I never ate a healthy lunch. I'm sure my waistline showed for it because of an actual lack of nutritional food. So what did I eat at home and around Fort Worth, Texas today?

Dinner
Apple
Banana
Coffee with sugar free hazelnut syrup and three half/half creamers

Lunch
3 ounces of ham
1 serving of Progressive Lentils
Salad of spinach, tomatoes, and yellow bell pepper
Serving of thousand island dressing

Dinner
4 ounces of Tilapia
Salad of spinach, tomatoes, and yellow bell pepper
Serving of thousand island dressing

It's a Progresso Garden Vegetable soup day in Fort Worth, Texas

Today continues my adventure of eating a healthy diet while trying out different Progresso soups. I figured that since the company has 40 different types, then I have something to try for 40 different days. I'm slightly worried about the salt content of some of the soups. I know that Progresso is trying to use natural Sea Salt. Is that still healthy for those of us that have high blood pressure and heart problems?

Dinner
Apple
Banana
Coffee with sugar free hazelnut syrup and three half/half creamers

Lunch
Turkey breast salad sandwich (ground turkey, tbsp. mayo, diced carrot, golden raisins, dried cranberries, and whole wheat bread.

Breakfast
Whole wheat English muffin
3 ounces of grilled ground turkey
2 servings of Progresso Garden Vegetable soup with added shredded carrots and cabbage

If Today Was Your Last Day in Fort Worth, Texas.

We are not promised tomorrow. Having years of volunteer experience and career experience in public safety, I know that we are not promised our next breath. Life can be over in an instant. I know this isn't very motivational but it's the truth.

My point is that we can find motivation for life almost anywhere in the world. It can be found through other peoples struggles, in other peoples successes, in movies, in television, and in songs. Nickelback "If today was your last day" is just perfect.

"My best friend gave me the best advice

He said each day's a gift and not a given right
Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind
And try to take the path less traveled by
That first step you take is the longest stride

If today was your last day
And tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
If today was your last day"

Don't wait till tomorrow to start your weight loss adventures. Let your next meal be as healthy as it can be. Get out there and be active!

Because the hands of time are never on your side

My favorite Fort Worth Panther!

I have a little story of inspiration for you Fort Worth, Texans. It all started when two clients at my work were fighting over a pair of sun glasses. We had put both of them outside to cool down. One wanted to make a Police report, so we called the Fort Worth Police Department.

I had been working the front desk at the time. Of course I was listening to the conversation. I noticed that the Officer had difficulty speaking. As I listened more, I found that yes he definitely had a daily battle with stuttering.

At that moment I wanted to knock myself upside the head for being so foolish with my life. Here is a man that struggle with stuttering every day. I'm sure he was teased as a child. That didn't stop him though. He went through the thirty one weeks of training. Now an active Fort Worth Police Officer.

How can we as people give up so quickly on our goals. How can we put things off for another day. We are not promised tomorrow. We are not promised our next breath. If someone can take on a challenge like that. Why can me not work towards a healthy diet and optimal performance?
 

Nervious about dating again

I was going to wait until I had lost all of my weight. I was going to wait until I was extremely healthy and had a successful eating plan. My friend had introduced me to a website that is for women who are BBW. The website is also for BHM (Big Handsome Men), women who love BBW/BHM, and the men that love BBW/BHM. At first I didn't want to sign up.

I have spent so much of my life trying to make other people happy. I have spent so much of my life making sure that other people were cared for. I have spent so much of my life hiding. I have spent so much of my life ignoring my own needs.

I need someone to go out with. I need someone to spend time with. I need someone to share my life with. If anyone knows my history, then you know that I recently divorced my husband. No one can replace my best friend. I will love Mike until my bones are ashes in the dirt. It's just that I need someone that is on my level. I need someone that wants to be part of their community.

I'm afraid of rejection though. I'm afraid that this man will either think that I'm too small for his liking, too big for his liking, too heavy chested for his liking, or too heavy hipped for his liking. I'm afraid that I'll just be this fetish that someone is only going to enjoy for a moment. I'm afraid that the man is going to be lusting just after one body part instead of wanting to know every part of me.

I know that I'm going to have to kiss a lot of frogs till I meet another man that will seem like my best friend again. I just don't think I'm ready to deal with all the pond slime.

Healthy Eating for June 2nd, 2015

I think that I have not done well with eating healthy because today I woke up with my body screaming "Give Me Vegetables!" I did not eat a lot of vegetables in the past week. Now that I have had the time to sit down and think about it, I can mark that up to two weeks. It's no wonder that my body is screaming and yelling for certain foods.

Breakfast:
2 Tilapia flanks
Salad with 3 tablespoons of thousand island dressing, romaine lettuce, tomatoes, onions, cucumbers, a couple black olives
Grilled pineapple

Lunch
4 ounces of chicken breast
Salad with 3 tablespoons of thousand island dressing, romaine lettuce, tomatoes, onions, cucumbers, a couple black olives.

Dinner
Oatmeal with 1/8 cup of diced walnuts and 1/2 cup of blueberries

Trying not to beat myself up about my weight loss program

Today has not been a good day in Fort Worth, Texas. I'm doing well with the eating and exercise part of my weight loss program. The whole emotional part of weight loss is different. I know that I should focus on the positive. I know that I should be focusing on the successes that I have had with my weight loss journey. The loss of 127 pounds is a big success.

When things go bad emotionally then mentally attacking your own body is easy. When things go bed relationship wise it's easy to spit out a bucket full of negative comments. When the dating scene just seems like it's dried up. It takes a toll on a persons emotions. I'm fighting against spitting out those negative comments.

Just recently I have stepped back into the dating scene. I had been married for 12 years and we grew apart. He didn't want the same goals as I wanted in life. He will be my best friend till the end of my life or his. We just couldn't see living together anymore if we are not completely happy.

The dating scene has been horrible. They either love my personality but don't like my size. Or they love BBW but I'm a SSBBW. Or I'm not big enough of a women for them to like me. It's hard to find a middle ground or your place in the dating world. Then you find that one guy that loves your personality and he loves your size. He loves the fact that you are losing weight and have awesome career goals. Then you find out that he's married.

This kind of information can make a woman feel inferior. Then the negative comments start flooding in. Or negative comments from other people will replay in a persons mind. It's funny. When other people talk negatively to me, I stick up for myself. When I talk negatively to myself, it seems like nothing can stop the verbal abuse.

Your so ugly that you can only attract men who are already taken
No one wants someone that big
Fix that face Fatso

Usually, it would ruin my whole weight loss program. I would emotionally eat until I was bursting from the seems. Or I would give up on my weight loss journey. Thankfully, I don't do those two things anymore. Now if I could stop verbally beating myself up then the world would be a happy place.

Walking and weight loss

I wonder if can count my patrols as exercise for my weight loss program. I don't usually walk very fast but I am walking constantly. On the job, I have to do a new patrol every fifteen minutes. My patrol consists of four buildings and the inside of one building.

This week I'll be doing this kind of patrol eleven days straight. Normally I work two days sentry and then 28 hours on patrol. I really do prefer to be on patrol. The activity makes the time go by faster. Plus I like the fact that I'm doing something active.

How are my workouts going?

I still have to baby my left foot. The arch of the foot is still sore. I did go out and buy a pair of new shoes. By the time 6 a.m. comes around, my feet are dog tired though. I have a feeling that the usual pain is from having 200 extra pounds on my feet. I don't think that Dr. Scholls could even fix that pain.

I've been really tired from working the extra hours. I still trying to get my wall push ups done at work. The rest of the stuff is going to have to wait a week. I don't think I'm going to ruin my body too much by taking a week off from a heavy work out.

One thing that I have learned from my adventures in weight loss is that good footing is really important.

Healthy eating for May 31, 2015

I wish I could say that I had an exciting healthy eating play for everyone today. I just didn't feel like making anything special. I wanted to focus on eating as many vegetables as I could today. I'll be honest about my eating. The kind of foods that I eat are very clean. My healthy eating doesn't consist of a lot of sauces and such.

Breakfast
2 chicken thighs and legs that had been steamed
1 cup of romaine lettuce
2 Tablespoons of hummus

Snack
Peanut butter pretzels

Lunch
2 slices of whole grain bread
4 ounces of chicken with diced onions, celery, and radishes
1 Tablespoon of sour cream

Snack
1 pack of hot and spicy cheez-it
 

Healthy eating for May 30, 2015

I did have one little slip up with my healthy eating today. I forgot to ask our local restaurant in Fort Worth, Texas for no tortilla. Normally, I can get everything wrapped up in foil or a lettuce leaf. As someone who is also Diabetic, I have to watch the starches that I put in my body. A flour tortilla and then also rice in the burrito is a serious "No No".

Breakfast
Burrito filled with black beans, rice, tomatoes, lettuce, sour cream, and marinated chicken

Lunch
Flourless egg and spinach quiche
1 cup of romaine
1 Tablespoon of hummus

Dinner
English muffin with a table spoon of peanut butter
Grilled apple slices

Working out May 28, 2015

I hate when I work so many days in a row. My workout schedule tends to get messed up. The cardio that I do usually tends to be the walking that I do on my patrols. I figure that I get enough walking done in my 8 hour shifts.

It's splurge day on my weight loss program

Yay! It's splurge day on my weight loss program. I'm actually doing well considering all the good food in Fort Worth, Texas. The problem that I seem to be having is not getting enough vegetables in. I have no problem eating my proteins but I get tired of eating dark leafy greens all the time. Some of the vegetables out there are not good for me because they really act like a starch. They tend to mess up my blood sugar. 

Breakfast
2 chicken thighs and legs
1 cup of spinach
Salad with tablespoon of no fat sour cream

Lunch
Slice of cheese cake
2 slices of pepperoni pizza
Salad with 3 ounces of turkey breast, Tbsp of cheese, carrots, celery, and diced broccoli

Dinner
Bowl of high fiber cereal with 1/2 cup of milk.

This week I wish I had not splurged on my weight loss program. No scratch that. I just need to find a better Pizza place in Fort Worth, Texas. If I'm going to spurge on two slices of pizza, I want them to be the best tasting slices of pizza a girl can get.

I know that the thought of chicken thighs and legs seems strange for breakfast. I want to make my goal that I eat my biggest meal at breakfast. Remember that I also work 3rd shift. Your dinner is my breakfast in the world of weight loss. 

Just not feeling like eating on May 27 2015

I'm doing what I said I was going to do. I'm reporting my weight loss meal for the day. I've been working a lot of hours in Fort Worth, Texas. I just don't feel like eating today. If I did feel like eating then I don't feel like preparing a meal. I just don't have the energy to cook anything. I don't want to deal with delivery of food because the calories are too high for my weight loss program.

Breakfast:
serving of cottage cheese
serving of pine apple
apple sauce
string cheese stick
serving of whole grain crackers

Lunch:
Toasted bagel with cream cheese
Celery with a serving of peanut butter

Dinner:
whole grain cereal with milk

I know that you are going to have days like this if your trying to eat healthy and stay on a weight loss program. This is why it is important to have healthy snacks around the house. I don't usually like to snack. I actually have to force myself to snack on my eating program. When I don't want to cook or when I'm too tired to move a muscle then I turn to snacking. I like to find things that are within the 100 calorie range because it's easier to keep track of the calories for the day.

Healthy eating for May 26, 2015

It's a day of trying new products in my corner of Fort Worth, Texas. Who would have thought that healthy was so yummy. I love when I get to try new food products. The salad that I had to lunch, I want to add to my favorites. I could see myself eating this Asian inspired meal at least once every two week or more.

Breakfast
Facocia with two tablespoons of hummus
Serving of milk

Snack
Apple sauce

Lunch
Serving of milk
Trader Ming's Five Spice Chicken and Asian Style Noodle Salad

Snack
1 Cheesecake bite (about 2 tablespoons)

Weight Loss Program

Not really happy with my weight loss program today. I wasn't able to get out and walk today. I hate when I'm unable to do any kind of cardio. Unless cleaning the house can count as cardio.

Breakfast
Oatmeal with brown sugar, cream, and almonds
Coffee with cream and sweetener

Snack
String Cheese
1/2 cup of melon

Lunch
Sliced apple
3 ounces of cheese
Serving of crackers

Snack
Bag of popcorn

Dinner
Two grilled pork chops
1/2 cup of whole wheat pasta
1/2 cup of black eyed peas
Sugar free Jello

Workout
Bicep curls
Military Press
Tricep extensions
Wall push ups
Crunches
Twists