Splurge Day from weight loss March 19th, 2015

It's another day of getting healthy in Fort Worth, Texas. Today is the day that I take off from my weight loss program, doing cardio and weight training. I usually let myself eat junk food on this day. I'm not talking about candy and potato chips. More like food from restaurants and stuff that would normally not order.

Breakfast

1 Egg Fu Yung

4 Tbsp of brown gravy

Snack

Egg Roll

Small side salad with no dressing

Lunch

Serving of pepper shrimp in brown sauce

Serving of streamed white rice

Serving of orange chicken

Snack

Egg Roll

Small side salad with no dressing

Dinner

Serving of sesame chicken

Serving of steamed white rice

Serving of orange chicken

Would I be dating a Fort Worth Panther?

Would I be dating a Fort Worth Panther if I was at my goal weight? Would I be dating a Fort Worth Police Officer if I had more courage and ego to give Officer M. my telephone number? With the things that a co-worker has said, I wonder sometimes. Of course she could be blowing smoke in my face.

It's really frustrating that people allow their looks to stop them from taking a risk. It all started with a question. "How much do you make rolling toilet paper." I have to admit that I thought Officer M was a mule for asking such a question at first. A cute mule but a mule none the less.

Then Officer M and his partner kept showing up for calls to my place of employment. I remember one night when I got off the bus and the were a swarm of squad cars. There seemed to be something serious going down. That was when I realized that I was attracted. I told him to be careful. I got the sternest look and a "Don't worry about me." Yeah I thought he was a mule again. A cute mule but still a mule.

Then the words from my co-worker started when I would have to take time off work. Things that Officer M had said.

"Where's my girl?"
"I'm glad when you and she are on duty."
"What hospital is she in?"

I wonder if he would have visited me at John Peter Smith if my co-worker had known where I was. I won't get to find out though. Officer M is now working in another section of Fort Worth, Texas.

 

Day 2 at JPS - Don't take each day for granted

Not the place in Fort Worth, Texas where I want to spend my 43rd Birthday. I'm in a private hotel room because apparently I have a staph infection somewhere in my body. I'm looking outside the hospital room at the snow and a graveyard. Not the best thing to have a view of while in the hospital. The nurses tell me that it is one of the oldest graveyards in Fort Worth, Texas. I can almost imagine how it was in the old west. The city of Fort Worth and then this small graveyard up on the hill.

Though being in the hospital really does put my life into perspective. I could have been dead two days ago. I could have had my life ended at the young age of 42. Yes, I consider this age young because to me age is just a number. People are doing amazing things in their 
60's, 70's and 80's.

It just reminds me that it's time to get my behind in gear. There is just too much of life to enjoy. There are too many experiences in life to go out and experience. There are to many lives to help change. There is to much in the community to help with.

Just don't take each day for granted

I have what?

I thought my weight loss journey was going well. Then someone scratched me at work. My face blew up to the point that it almost took my life.

Today, I kinda wish that it had taken my life. The Doctor gave me the news. "You're blood sugar is too high. You have Diabetes. Your going to have to really monitor your foods.
Your going to have to take an injection each morning"

Wait...what...I have to monitor my food more than I do now. I have to do what? I have to play with a needle each day. I can't stand needles. I absolutely hate needles. Now it's an every day thing.

I'm just frustrated with my weight loss and health today. I feel like I'm starting over. I feel like I haven't accomplished anything. I know that I have but today I feel like I haven't

People tell me that I look like I have lost weight. People tell me that my face looks a lot thinner. People tell me that I'm acting more positive.

I just don't feel it today.