This is a very humbling experience for me because I'm returning to a place that I said I would never return to. No one plans to be homeless again. I honestly thought I would never have to return to Presbyterian Night Shelter. At least that was my plan. As I worked at the shelter I saw so many people be blessed with free housing only to return to the shelter. This is not any fault of the shelter or staff. In my case, I had no control over why I am returning to the area.
As someone that was an authoritative role. Someone who had to break up fights and enforce rules, I'm expecting a lot of flack. I'm expecting a lot of the clients to make snarky remarks and point fingers. I'm also expecting a lot of questions of why I am there. I hope that they understand that I was just doing my job when I was working there. I hope that they understand that at no time did I think that I was better than them. Truthfully, I would have given my life for them if it had come down to saving theirs. What they don't know is that I prayed to God every night for their lives to be changed.
I guess I will have to deal with what comes my way when I get to that bridge. It is my goal to help these people any way that I can. I'm still working commission as a job placement specialist. Most of the job listings are not for the skills that these Fort Worth residents have. I will do what I can to find myself a job and find them jobs too.
I know that people reading this blog probably think I'm crazy. That I should just focus on myself as someone who is homeless in Fort Worth, Texas. I can't do that though because I'm all about helping others. It brings me great happiness. I'm all about the happy feelings in Fort Worth, Texas.
